haiz, then sianz, then both.. still in office rushing up mega website for whole of east asia for some corporate whose marketing is quite screwed up and, and they totally dun knw wad they want and some ppl jus refuse to get involved.. fedup man..

being have stupid thoughts, some even quite dumb thoughts, and probably even doing stupid stuff.. or sayin real stupid stuff too!!~ stupid in the sense that it is not the normal reaction expected ba?

well, after not bloggin for a while, the last 2 para sums up almost everything, that if you understand ba.. being wanting to blog, but everything after i login, then like no mood to continue le.. tiring man..
so things have being horrible!! this is probably the dun knw how many times, i hope that i m some dumb ass totally unobvious of wad is gng on around..

- standing at the shore, lookin out to the sea, on a sunny day, u will probably be seeing a very calm sea.. a occasional strong waves, getting light splashes of water.
- getting into the water, you will be hitting always, waves after waves of tidal current. sometimes you may wobbles, sometimes, you may fall, but most of the time, you are in control.
- as you are totally in the water, the waves become unimportant to you, they are no longer a concern, firstly, you are totally wet, and they can no longer make u wobbly or fall, cos u r in it already! and you are probably not too far from shore and even have the chance to meet some dolphins
- gng deeper, deep into the calm sea, you see fishes, shallow water corals, you see a beautiful community here, everything seems so wonderful, and nothing is bothering you, not even the wave, and fishes jus swim pass you.
- gng further, you meet fierce predators, sharks and other meat feedin fish roam, every moment seeking for their next prey. if you are not careful, you maybe their next meal.. whoossh! tat shark jus have his dinner, you narrowly escape.
- even deeper, its so dark, black cannot be any blacker. life is motionless here, every moment is slow, for oxygen is low here, with little or no sun light, there is almost no life in here, this is a level of totally different community of sea creatures.

up above the water, from the shore, again, all you see is a smooth calm sea with occasional waves strong enough to cause a slight splash on your face.

june is coming to an end, well, hoping i can find the answer i being wondering and getting all fuked abt everyday..

well well, yes, i ain’t feeling any happiness recently.. and yes, i m totally bothered by a lot of shit.
inside, outside, upthr, downthr.